The Art of Letting Go

and all i can think about is my family.  i wanna reconnect to them and i wish i actually could have them help me but i have to figure it out on my own.  i mean i have my parents to help me out, but i also want my grandma and my aunties helping me out. i wish that i could focus on my assignment, but all i can think about is them. one day everything will be fine and everything will be how its supposed to, right? i want to see them again. i want them back :/

that show is messed up and freaky. good thing lea is coming over to watch with me. if i was alone while watching this show, i would probably get killed by that “blind” girl jenna. hahaha nah i dont know if she’s really blind. but im not lying about how she would kill me. -____-

i am actually very surprised that i do homework now ESPECIALLY during the summer. and i dont hate it as much as i thought i would. maybe its because i only have one class. haha! ahhh im hope it stays this way when i go back to school in August. if not, i’d be so pissed at myself. because im really proud that im doing homework and trying more than i was towards the ending of last year. im really trying. i hope you’re proud of me too :)

this is an awkward subject…..hahahaha! but im gonna rant about it and i wouldnt doubt if i regret it later. but its probably because its coming soon. anyways, gosh its so irritating like when you get it. it ruins everything for a whole week. and the 2nd day sucks the most. you know who its like “first is the worst, second is the best…”? WELL IM SORRY TO BREAK IT TO YOU BUT SECOND IS NOT THE BEST. haha! dang. and then i get all mood swingy and emotional. depressed at one moment and happy the next. and i get mood swingy like either before/after/during my period. i never know when. what a wonderful surprise……-___- have a nice night. haha :) 

SEE I TOLD YOU! D:

OH MY GOSH ME TOO! OK SOMETHING IS SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH ME. HAHA. 

like i’ve been depressed tonight. i think its because i was listening and watching heart sore videos on youtube :( or im gonna get my period soon. but i miss you so much! i miss a lot of people so stinkin much! well i would say you should text me but you dont have a phone :( so i dont know. but i love you too brother! send me a letter. you can be one of my penpals that dont exist yet. hahaha! <3

i wanna try. but i dont know what to talk about. i’ll find something that irritates that crap out of me and then let it out on here. haha!! STAY TUNED :D

HOW IN THE WORLD DID I NOTICE ONLY NOW THE 30 PIECE GLOB OF RICE ON MY SHIRT?! I ATE LIKE 45 MINUTES AGO! AND THEN GUESS WHERE ELSE I FOUND A PIECE OF RICE……

IN MY NOSE! WHAT IS GOING ON?!?!! COME ON LAUREN! I THOUGHT I WAS IMPROVING HAHAHAH x) AHHH SAD LIFE.

because i hate this brick!!! haha my phone now sucks!

so hopefully this summer i’ll get a new one. :D 

if not, i may be in depression for a while, just giving a heads up. haha